Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass- it is about learning to dance in the rain.

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

What I needed???

"If I Perish, I Perish"

Back to God's sense of humor: After school today I was blog surfing and found an article about Queen Esther and her quote in Esther 4:6.

Everything Moms.

Thinking about it did indeed soothe me. But I'm already soothed. Why didn't I find it yesterday??? Probably because I would have screamed back at God, "But that's the point!! I don't want to perish."

Now, when my crisis of anxiety is over, I see. I understand. It's my false sense of control. Did it really matter when I got the news??? Not really. If I perish, I perish.
Aaaah! The irony! I'm willing to give the control back to God when the danger is over.

Forgive me God!! I know I do not control the universe; you do!

PJ



4 comments:

His Girl said...

Ah, a lesson for us all to learn!

again.
and again.
and again!

glad you're okay :)

Sher :) said...

PJ,
I love your post. Thanks for referring me. Maybe I was a day late. *lol*

Ex-Shammickite said...

Good luck with everything.
And stay calm.
And keep smiling.

mykidsmom said...

Thanks for the link. I had to laugh at your "but I don't want to perish!" comment. It's so true-sometimes we need to be reminded we can't/don't control everything.

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