What I needed???
"If I Perish, I Perish"
"If I Perish, I Perish"Back to God's sense of humor: After school today I was blog surfing and found an article about Queen Esther and her quote in Esther 4:6.
Everything Moms.
Thinking about it did indeed soothe me. But I'm already soothed. Why didn't I find it yesterday??? Probably because I would have screamed back at God, "But that's the point!! I don't want to perish."
Now, when my crisis of anxiety is over, I see. I understand. It's my false sense of control. Did it really matter when I got the news??? Not really. If I perish, I perish. Aaaah! The irony! I'm willing to give the control back to God when the danger is over.
Forgive me God!! I know I do not control the universe; you do!
PJ
Everything Moms.
Thinking about it did indeed soothe me. But I'm already soothed. Why didn't I find it yesterday??? Probably because I would have screamed back at God, "But that's the point!! I don't want to perish."
Now, when my crisis of anxiety is over, I see. I understand. It's my false sense of control. Did it really matter when I got the news??? Not really. If I perish, I perish. Aaaah! The irony! I'm willing to give the control back to God when the danger is over.
Forgive me God!! I know I do not control the universe; you do!
PJ
4 comments:
Ah, a lesson for us all to learn!
again.
and again.
and again!
glad you're okay :)
PJ,
I love your post. Thanks for referring me. Maybe I was a day late. *lol*
Good luck with everything.
And stay calm.
And keep smiling.
Thanks for the link. I had to laugh at your "but I don't want to perish!" comment. It's so true-sometimes we need to be reminded we can't/don't control everything.
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